Sunday, 20 February 2011
3:39 pm
Entry 006 - " Fire "
Hello there (:
How are you doing? I hope you're doing great! Alright, let us go through some updates with regards to what is currently happening in my life.
CA1 is that near. Next week to be in fact. I'm...prepared? I'm not so sure on this one. I've got quite a few being handled well however... my combine humanities ( Social Studies ) is still going through a storm. I... failed my previous class test... Not what I expected. I was even scolded by him. Few of his words were harsh; discouraging my will & spirit to fight on. I even broke down. I couldn't take it. But I didn't mope. What is there to mope about? I can sense his concern & care for me. That fact was enough to pull myself up again. Now, I don't even want to disappoint him even further... Oh god. Pray that I'll be able to succeed this time ^^. I'll continue working hard. A promise between me & god... even if the results doesn't show proof to my hard work. Still, I'll learn from them, again & again till the Preliminary & the dreaded O-level has finally arrived.
Now.
I wish I could continue writing but I have to go. I'm currently doing some self-research with regards to Organic Chemistry on Alcohols & Carboxylic Acids. However I'm straying afar back to Alkanes & Alkenes -_-. I have to snap out of it ><
Alright, that's what's 'up' recently. Till then.
Thursday, 17 February 2011
7:31 pm
Entry 005 - " Why "
Why is he home.
Sunday, 13 February 2011
8:12 pm
ENTRY 004 - "PRESSURED"
Try to picture yourself being suffocated from being sandwiched between two halves of a cracker. One half could symbolize your need to keep a constant motivation on yourself to strive while the other could be reality (what you're currently facing i.e). Would you feel like you're at the edge? Being driven up the wall? Pressured?
That's exactly what any student preparing for the O's would feel. At least, what most would. I can't help but worry. Worry for one after the other. It's a never-ending cycle. I agree at the fact that we have to push ourselves to the limit in this crucial time of our lives as students but... it pushed me far off.
I feel nothing.
I can't decide what to do next, what to concentrate on, how to feel during a difficult situation & how to react accordingly so as to make it at ease. I feel empty. I cry day and night. Soon, I'll stop. But I'll feel deeply caved in wheres I was suppose to at least feel something after it. I don't want to be like an unwritten piece of paper. Even paper contains one's feelings, actions, events that happens in his/her life. God help me.
....Don't worry. I know that no matter how much I've put in just to write what I'm going through; I have to keep moving. I have to wrestle with reality and tie it down feeling proud that I've overcome it. I've succeeded.
Sigh.
I won't give up ^^. No one should, alright? -pats your head- Till then.
