Sunday, 13 February 2011
8:12 pm
ENTRY 004 - "PRESSURED"
Try to picture yourself being suffocated from being sandwiched between two halves of a cracker. One half could symbolize your need to keep a constant motivation on yourself to strive while the other could be reality (what you're currently facing i.e). Would you feel like you're at the edge? Being driven up the wall? Pressured?
That's exactly what any student preparing for the O's would feel. At least, what most would. I can't help but worry. Worry for one after the other. It's a never-ending cycle. I agree at the fact that we have to push ourselves to the limit in this crucial time of our lives as students but... it pushed me far off.
I feel nothing.
I can't decide what to do next, what to concentrate on, how to feel during a difficult situation & how to react accordingly so as to make it at ease. I feel empty. I cry day and night. Soon, I'll stop. But I'll feel deeply caved in wheres I was suppose to at least feel something after it. I don't want to be like an unwritten piece of paper. Even paper contains one's feelings, actions, events that happens in his/her life. God help me.
....Don't worry. I know that no matter how much I've put in just to write what I'm going through; I have to keep moving. I have to wrestle with reality and tie it down feeling proud that I've overcome it. I've succeeded.
Sigh.
I won't give up ^^. No one should, alright? -pats your head- Till then.
